...sometimes life can be so difficult..I'm sure you know that!!! What some people deal with seem to be far more difficult than what someone else may be dealing with...yet, what if it's the same feeling of emotion that the two share. I do believe that's what binds us in this world..even though we still want to be so incredibly different from one another, we still share the same burden of heart-ache, pain, and frustration. I can hear someone now, telling me how different they are from me, and how hard their life has been..and all I can say is the only thing that makes us different is the mis-understood acknowledgement from the person on "easier" side of things...not appreciating the some-what easy season of life they have. And, maybe the extremeness of the latter person, who can't seem to get over how hard it's been instead of looking down the road and trying to help as many people as possible who might share their same kind of circumstances. I've heard it said that hurt people can hurt people...but hurt people are the most qualified to help people, too. So, it's a choice to make a small difference in someone's life..regardless of what side of the fence we lie on.
I have heard it said before that God did not create us for ourselves..that he, in fact, created us for helping someone else along the way..and of course for his will to shine through and especially to draw us to him.
So what's my point with all this jibberish..well, that's where I am...I guess..for this season of my life. My son, has high-functioning autism..and even though he is mostly somewhat of a "normal" kiddo, Scott and I are sort of drawn into a world of isolation and a different type of raising him. We can't just take vacations, and go to restaurants and other things that we see other people do. Fire-works at 9 p.m....don't make me laugh...he needs a strict routine to keep him functional the next day. I find myself in between a place of confusion sometimes, as to why I am allowed to be his mom..and a state of frustration with how much I don't know and understand about him..and having a one year old that also requires my absolute attention. But, still, I know there are others out there who may be starting their journey into this world and could use an encouraging word or a hug..!! I don't think we are meant to be here alone..we are called to be part of each other's life..not to carry each others burdens..but, to be part of it..to one day look back and say..wow, look what we got through..together!!
Anyways, I do feel that God is very much a part of our family..so secretive in his ways, that at the moment I don't exactly see where he's going with all this, and don't ask me to admit I agree with it, sometimes...but, as in my own life..I have seen him do miracle after miracle..so, trusting him should come easy for me...right?!!! I find my way into this paradox always...but, I know what his word always says..fear not..trust me..have faith...Pray for strength and understanding..and that, my friends...is exactly where I am..so, along the way in your journey...would you pray for me in mine...?!!